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Music icon BGM #13 

Written by Akeela in Music — 
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*BGM (BackGround Music), it is the music that describes my feelings of the moment.

Music icon BGM #12 

Written by Akeela in Music — 
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*BGM (BackGround Music), it is the music that describes my feelings of the moment.

Music icon BGM #11 

Written by Akeela in Music — 

*BGM (BackGround Music), it is the music that describes my feelings of the moment.

Music icon BGM #10 

Written by Akeela in Music — 
Sometimes darkness can show you the light


*BGM (BackGround Music), it is the music that describes my feelings of the moment.

Log icon The dark forest 

Written by Akeela in Log — 
black-and-white-dark-forest-trees-woods.jpgThe blow inflicted to me by the person most important to me on this world killed me.

For good.

Normal since I wasn't expecting it.
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So, I ventured into the dark forest. A place where the light doesn't leaks in.

The air is heavy, your head spins when you start thinking about what brought you here.

Your heart comes in your throat and makes you feel bad.

Very bad.

You realize that it's Christmas and you're crying lost in this dark territory.

You start running to escape thoughts that put you anxiety.
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The paths are very slippery and take you quickly to definitive thoughts.

It is not a nice place and it is so easy to get lost.

And then, waiting to be rescued is useless.

From this place you have to get out of it by yourself. So you start running.

But you start thinking.

To what hurts you, that pain in your chest that does not go away. Your head spins again.

The pain grows, fills you up, you have a panic attack.
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You arrive near a pond, the trees spread out a bit and allow a beam of sunlight to penetrate.

You calm down, take a deep breath and you immediately get a clear picture in your head that you recognize.

The face of the one who still you love and smiling at you. Drops of bitterness drips down your cheeks.

Life's a bitch.

It allows you to find the most beautiful thing in the world, true love, and then it will take it away.

Even if you still want to come back with her, you do not know if it's really possible.

And that scares you.

Because you already have to make a big effort to get out of this forest and then, you don't know what you'll find out there...
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Thoughts icon Growing 

Written by Akeela in Thoughts — 
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The wounds in your past is like a carving on the bark of sapling.

Over time, the scar, the carving won't go away.

Because of the way trees grow it won't go up or down much either, it'll just stay right where it began.

It might even get darker.

But it won't get bigger. You, however, can.

You can keep growing, doing more things, more branches, being more things.

The wound won't get smaller but you can make it a smaller part of who you are.

Maybe regrets are like that. They stick around forever like arborglyphs.

Or maybe they make like a tree and leaf.

It only depends on us.

Happy Holidays.

Thoughts icon Lost 

Written by Akeela in Thoughts — 


One can not do it alone in a couple, even with all the good will and lots, lots of love, if nothing more is reciprocated then all is lost.

This destroys you in the deepest.

There's nothing to do, that suffering.

Try not to drown in regrets, because your life had this sun shining in the sky and now is back in the dark of the night.

And despite everything you stay there, with her still in your heart because you are an incurable romantic and an emeritus idiot...

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Written by Akeela in Thoughts — 
I'll whisper in your ear
Those three words

That you've been dying to hear

It's not a curse...

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